My husband came home from a guy's weekend to tell me he's made up with his friend I had sex with.

He asked if I might approve of him staying with us when he's working in our area.

I made a (not so funny) joke about the threesome we had once talked of having, before I cheated on him of course, and my husband said he was thinking something along those lines.

Hmmmm... WTF?!?

About Me

Hi.


I have decided to start this blog anonymously since my other blog is too open with readers to write these sorts of stories.

Let's begin early on:


I lost my virginity when I was 17 to a man who didn't matter. After that I went wild sleeping with three guys in a matter of months.


I tied down with someone serious, who later became my husband and had the BEST sex of my LIFE.

But then I cheated, not once, not twice, but THREE times.


Moving on, I fessed up, he forgave me and we married.





A few years down the road, while pregnant, I cheated again. Only this time it was worse. In our home, with his friend.


The struggle continued.


Again, he has forgiven me and we have moved on, mostly.



We've tried marriage counseling, we have talked, we have tried to work through things, but the simple fact is, I'm not fulfilled.


I want and love sex.



I am dying to experience other women. I am dying to try off the wall enhancements, threesomes, orgies. I want to try everything.


Only he doesn't seem to have an interest. In me. In sex.


I don't understand it.




So here I have come to blog on it, anonymously.


I'd love some feedback, but even if you don't care to respond, feel free to read through my struggles.

Girl on Girl

I had my first Girl on Girl experience this weekend.

It was of course, persuaded by shots, lots. of. shots.

151 helps.

Butternut Schnapps certainly didn't hurt.

I think there might have been Vodka in there.

Who knows.


This is what I remember. There was a lot of touchy feely stuff that night. We were in the hot tub, men included and it just kept happening. Others slowly drifted out and we went at it for hours. I don't remember the last time I ever had sex for that long. That intense.

That amazing.

The kissing was perfect.

The water was warm, at least in the beginning. By morning most of it had evaporated or slipped out with bodies.

But meanwhile, we kissed each other intensely. The toys were AMAZING. The pressure, the taste, the touch, the sensations.

To die for.

Can I do it again? Please.